My passions

I must admit that one of my greatest passions has been on Yoga and Meditation. I am truly inspired and have so many Childish fantasies on Yogi's capabilities.
For e.g., A yogi who reads books in flash of a second. A yogi who learns everything in the world. A yogi who knows everything and yet keeps quiet, does only what he needs to do and nothing else.
A yogi who experiences 'Ananda' , rejoices that his life's purpose has been known and works for it.
A yogi who truly knows who his guru is.
I want to really know if there is anything called 'Ananda' which is permanent and forever. This is because the materialistic world I live has no guarantees on Happiness and I know that very well. Though sometimes the 'Maya' takes over my mind.
How in this modern world, must a yogi be?
How does a yogi looks like , if he is into serious research work?
Does a yogi needs to do any research if he already has known everything?
How can we be in our own society and do meditation in nights ?
Is there anything in the world called 'A Call' from some heavens up there?
What would be like if we really have a chance to be what we wanted to be?

When I was a child, I always wanted to do 'Tapas' and meet God. I don't know why.
I wanted to be as good as Sai Baba.

Is there a call from God? Am I now in a position to bear anything?
I do not know. I can take any sorrow that is like on worldly possessions.
I am not sure if I can take as many pains as Bhagat Singh took. As much torture as Our Indian soldiers took from Pakistani army.

I can understand some crimes in the world.
So this concept has come now , because there is some concept of taking pains before acheiving something so Big, which is actually the purpose of life.

It's a pain only when we are not ready for it. When we get ready to anything then we are know almost no pain. But God has his ways to make someone ready.